DAILY BLOG
“I DEFINITELY CAN” BLOG
- A new Chapter has begun today
They say your life dramatically changes roughly every 7 years, inbetween this all sorts of experiences happen. Today me and my partner separated, nothing dramatic happened, it just came to a full stop, we all of a sudden stopped being kind to one another, we stopped accepting one another and being supportive of one another. it takes a brave person or people to realise this. I have always been comfortable being alone, one thing you do miss is the affection you recieve from a partner, cuddles, kisses, those things are harder to bear, than the loss of somone you no longer like. One thing on my mind about the relationship is much of the time was spent talking and thinking about the future which now doesnt exsist, my ex partner expressed not that long ago that he looked forward to being turning 40 and being calmer! i used to look younder to a time when he wouldnt work so much and so on, instead we should have, not that this would have saved the relationship but we should have just lived and enjoyed the moments, the days, instead the insecurites coming out and we try to latch on to someone we think we care about, but actually these are nothing but demons in ourselves we need conquer. If someone doesnt accept us from the moment we say i love you, then it isnt going to work, because we only change if we want to and as a part of growth and wisdom but our core self and habits do often remain, if not wrapped in a little more logic. stay in the present, just in the present day with a goal or eye on the personal direction you want to go. I feel free and black today, change is occuring which is always good, but you can't help shed a wave of saddness for that which has been. Life is what we make it and more importantly what we think it before hand,my thoughts have led me to this point, my mind is positive, i focus on what i want and so i must trust that this road is the right one.
- Going away
Leaving your normal surroundings is an important part of your growth, a city worker should take themselves to the countryside every now then, and the country bumpkin should take a scroll round the city streets. If one can afford a trip abroad then even better. I'm in L.A right now, and I'm loving the different energy of the people, the different style of living and the weather is all stimulus to awaken the mind. Routine goes out the window and you have the time on a break away to stop and think, review your life, see your life at home from a birds eye point of view. New ideas begin to be born, plans begin to form and your soldiers begin to stand to attention to implement your plan on arrival home. When I go away with a love one, I expect from them to leave work at home, and focus on relaxing, taking part in joint activities and turning the romance factor up to the maximum. Unfortunately my trip with my partner has been two strong individuals unable to bond together out of our normal environment. We have argued non stop, and all the issues that don't have the freedom of time to come out at home, has risen with the sunshine. When I person has no work, family, dentist appointment to run off too, you are faced with a real person, because there is only so long you can keep up the pretence, the real slim sandy must stand up! I believe I was once a selfish person, I have worked on correcting this by intentionally becoming more giving, until it becomes natural I want stop practicing, but during my selfish stage I may have attracted a selfish man, time will tell. Insight of today: "every achiever that I have ever met says, My life turned around when I began to believe in me"
- Getting Ahead
"getting ahead in a difficult profession requires avid faith in yourself. You must be able to sustain yourself against staggering blows. There is no code of conduct to help beginners. That is why some people with mediocre talent, but with great inner drive, go much farther than people with vastly superior talent" Sophia Loren I had a day doing nothing today, of course i come into the paper's head office to write my column, im not exercising today which feels nice and naughty all at the same time. I am going to spend the afternoon watching some movies, already watch radging bull, not very uplifting! yikes! next one will be a little more spiritual and moving in the good way i hope, or i'll just settle for a movie where no one women gets slapped around!. Writing my column never feels like work. I also just completed writing my application form to join a 3 year yoga teaching training course starting in october, i think it is very important to study and continue to study always, . I believe i need a big challenge and a 3 year training program is definitley that, i need to test my determination, i believe with all my heart that i now possess this trait as my own. I like now to plan ahead, which in the past i used to detest doing, but after a few wasted years drifiting with nothing having be accomplished, i realised i had been showned a valueable lesson in goals and goal setting. i can now even set goals for 1-2 years in advance and with this teaching program im taking it to 3 years! i used to not even be able to plan my afternoon that same morning, i used to think whats the point, things change all the time, and people and i change my plans and feelings, with a plan you have direction and particular road to follow, you always know what to do, even if things change or come of course, The main definite purpose remains the same, This gives you energy, drive and persistance to achieve dispite the adversity, obstacles and failures along the way. The end destination: I have the picture and im building it with colour and people, the type of house i want, the car i drive, to how many hours a week i work, where i holiday, what number of family members i will have and so on, its a masterpiece. There is magic and real enjoyement in asking yourself what you want in life, and picturing youself having it all without limatation. Dare to dream, allow yourself to desire a thing, allow yourself to dream, put your mind into the equation and start to actually plan the atainment of those goals
- Protect your mind
Be careful what you watch and read, before picking a movie, settling down to a TV show or reading a magazine, ask yourself is this going to make you feel better about life and yourself or worse? your mind is like a sponge soaking up whatever is around it. Today I'm running Box-Smart The course for exercise enthusiasts, trainers and coaches. When i first started this course a few years back, we struggled 1 month in particular to make the numbers and sell the course, its funny because i remember feeling a little defeated. As you read and study success, you come to realize, these early days in business are there to make you stronger, in enduring lower periods with little success, you get stronger and your belief gets bigger, i have always run from failure, but in facing it head on, like the day when we had to run a half full course, i learn't to be proud that my team are actually trying to do something positive. We arn't recovering from a hangover, or spending our sunday in bed, we got up early to teach and help others be better at there job. Today the course is booming, with courses running on average once per month with 16-20 participants at each course, and we earn good money from and have a great time doing it. We have a website and people working for us now, but i remember the lessons that i learnt in the early days, in putting yourself out there, starting up your own business, you will grow, your wisdom for life expands, and your power and belief in yourself becomes unbreakable, which in turns give you a character trait honed by yourself pure Determination, knowing you can achieve anything.
- 20th aug 2010
i woke up today at 11am, wow i havent slept this late in a while, i decide to call my driver to be outside my apartment in 30mins, im going to a spa, going to have a massage, full body, concentrating on my back shoulders and calves. then im going to have a facial, my skin has been a little spotty lately so this is just what i need, then im going to attend to my feet and hands, i book via the telephone a 3 and a half hour long appointment, my driver is downstairs and on route we take a quick de-tour to pick up an iced coffee with a little sugar in, to keep me sweet for my treatments, i always wrote down as a young girl, each day that i would wake up in the morning and do as i please and look here i am!. the massage was divine, my muscles are loose and my skin is tight, soft and shining. my face is shiny very shinny but i feel so clean. my feet and hands are clean, i want to show my toes of to someone now. im due another coffee so off i run in search of starbucks, i ask the driver to drop me to the office in canary wharf, where i need to write my column, im at the office for 3 hours, after the treatments i feel so relaxed, my mind feels wide open and it wont stop so i just keep typing til im done, i write about the importance of pictures in the mind, spending time not day dreaming but visualising that which you believe yourself to have, i spent much time in my twenty's writing down daily my ambitions, and how i would like my day to go. and im living it now. after writing, im famished, my tummy so empty, i feel like being naughtly this is what happens when you dont eat for long periods of time, your rational for choosing healthy foods goes right out the window! i pop into a brassire that is on my way home, i pick pasta dishes, breads, some chocolate covererd rice cakes, and fizzy drinks, i know we have some chicken at home, so this will make a nice enough meal for me and Mr t . Ive just realised i havent exercised today and i feel a little guilty, not one to procratinate, i drop the shopping home, call the gym in my apartment to see if a trainer is free to take me for a martial arts workout, one is always free as the gym is so quiet. so off i go 45 mins is enough today, and im done. My thoughts are on whether on not sweets are really that bad for you? i have always believed since the age of 26 that its what you tell your mind to think about the particular foods that does the most harm, thin people like myself, eat whatever they want and don't gain weight, i enjoy my sweet treats, but i dont eat them by the drunk load just enough to satify my fancy, because i dont view it as bad i dont feel bad for eating them,and my body doesnt feel bad for enjoying them, i feel good infact, high on sugar on par with energy like a child, zooming around town, talking at 100th of speeds, and enjoying the high, i guess because i exercise too, im always getting many highs in the day. Being in love gives me a high, the high you can feel from being with your partner again after an argument, the magnetism the pulls you towards each other is a high, hitting the pads with my gloves is a high i need to indulge in. We are always told balance! but is there fun in living a balance life? i dont know. I read over and over in my studies, that to be successful we must help other people be happy or to be successful also. do you understand this? we can't merly think of pleasing ourselves, no good comes from this, you will never be happy, unless you are busy provding a service. i have always liked the idea of owning a little shop full of unusal books that ive read over the years, and books on success, where i offer daily readings and yoga and exercise classes all in this one little book store, but im not sure canary wharf is quite bohemian enough for this yet although never say never. i guess i would like this shop online too, online webniars and discussion boards, that way i can achieve my dream of living and working anyway in the world. remember think about giving and sharing with others and your imagination will come alive and this is a universal natural law that needs to be adhered to if you want success, IN GIVING WE SHALL RECIEVE. in helping otheres we are helping ourselves.